In need of help, I think I have some sort of disorder..?
Okay so, here’s my story.
Since I was a kid, I have always seen these shadow type things out of the corner of my eye. Every time I look over, they go away.
Sometimes if it is far away, it just kind of floats there not taking shape of anything and grows bigger but I quickly look away and change location because it makes me feel uncomfortable.
I also notice strange lighting situations, its not like a big completely dark area and then a white figure of light, its more like dim lighting and then a light shape out of no where.
Recently I’ve been having bad dreams more frequently, not like an every night thing but I rarely ever have bad dreams.
I get scared and worried easily, I think I’m paranoid but I don’t know of what.
As a kid, I always over exaggerated and now when I think something is wrong with me my mom doesn’t believe me and thinks I’m just being a drama queen.
As I’ve gotten older, I see the same figures over and over agian and now even hear noises, these strange figures make me nervouse and I never feel comfortable.
I always end up going to sleep at like 6 in the morning when I feel un easy and I have no1 to sleep with.
I’m 14 and I’m so tired of this, I want to know that there is something wrong with me before I go to some kind of specialist and have my mom pay money that she doesnt have so that I can "stop seeing and hearing things"
Normaly what I hear are screams and yells, not ghostly or anything but just painful yells and screams.
And I have this distinct dream I had a few months or so ago that I can remember and that scares the heck out of me, it was a bad dream that someone had died and a few weeks after that dream, I saw the house that my dream took place at.
Sometimes I see strange figures that look like they’re staring right at me, but when I shift my eyesight directly at it, it disapears.
I’m not sure what I see and hear, but it makes me uneasy and I dont like it.
I am also concerned with death and being scared that something is going to happen to my friends and family.
I am terrified of dieing and of thunderstorms and any kind of bad weather (if that helps)
These things usually only happen when it is quiet, I am alone, at night, when everyone else is asleep, or when I feel uneasy.
I dont just hear yells, I also hear random blows of wind, or chimes or bells.
I also feel like someone is always watching me, and it isnt a good feeling, like a door window that doesnt have a curtain, I look at it every 10 seconds because I feel like someone is watching me.
I just really need answers and help, my friend is also going through something similar to mine, but hers is WAY worse, she has panic attacks like crazy, she cant sleep at night, her parents are going through a divorce but this has happened long before that, she sees..people kind of like shadows and then sees them in strange dreams, I was with her last night awake with her becasue she was having a panic attack and couldnt sleep and she felt like she had to throw up and she kept saying she felt like something was going to happen, and the last time she said it our small towns power suddenly went out, like it was so scarey it was like something you’d see in the movies! She texts me at 2 adn 3 in the morning because she cant sleep and when she tries to get in the bed with her mom, she feels like she has to move and its over welming for her. She has told her mom about it but her mom doesnt really think that its something that will be controled by talking to some person that charges money to talk about it. But we just need some answers.
–thank you!
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If it is paranoia, the images you see can be the result of delusion or a problem of perception; like peripheral vision problems.
Perception issues can be the result of :
Inner ear infection
Chemical, hormonal, or sugar imbalance
Vitamin deficiency
Depression
High blood pressure
Apperception (using consciousness or "inner sense" or "inner state")
Sympathy pains (feeling like your friend)
Delusion
Illusion
You may have had an eye infection, nearsightedness or farsightedness, burnt them on lights, Xrays, or sunrays, had a head injury, a chemical burn, migraine or cluster headaches, past viruses
Sounds like your friend has anxiety and panic disorder
All the things that you explain could either be schizophrenia or just paranoia problems :\ I would recommend talking to a therapist or a doctor so you could be analyzed/tested to see if you can get on anti anxiety medicine or anti depressants to help keep your mind balanced.
Sounds like you could benefit from some medication from psychiatrist, and get you happily on your feet so you can live a normal happy life. Hopefully you are just going through a stage that you will outgrow all on your own.
I think the scared of dyeing thing is somewhat normal. Everyone is scared of something, part of me is even scared of dyeing. But then I remind myself it’s just a part of life. And you need to remember that god has a different plan for everyone.
About the shadow thing and the yells and screams. That’s not normal, at all! Reading your
story makes me nervous for you. My uncle has actually been diagnosed with Paranoid Schizophrenia. I’m not saying that you have this, or that anything is wrong with you. Just that you share some of the same symptoms as he did. I will leave you a link so you can get some more info on this. I wish you all the luck girl, and that you get this problem fixed.
I am a very spiritual person. And I feel things too, as a christian it is called a gift of discernment. What you are feeling is perhaps the gift of seeing what many can’t see the spiritual world around us, and as you know many might call it a mental disorder and it is not. I think it is spiritual, and you can use it for good.
I am not sure if you believe in God, but I will tell you once you have Christ in your heart nothing can touch you or hurt you. I belong to a wonderful support group of very spiritual christian people who can help you, and understand what you are going through. I do hope to see you there
This can be a spiritual problem. Sounds like you need God in your life to help you. God is love. To help yourself, you need to know Jesus Christ, God’s Son, who is our bridge to God. God can help you live a better life. You can have a personal relationship with God by saying the prayer below. God is all-knowing, all-powerful, eternal, holy, love. God loves us and sent us His Son, Jesus Christ, so we can go to heaven if we know and follow Him. Forever means without end — time on and on without death. Forever is what happens after we die. Either we go to heaven and be with God forever, or we go to hell which is very bad and painful forever. The good people who are saved believers in Jesus Christ go to heaven. The bad people go to hell. We need to know and follow God in this world to get to heaven in the next world. We follow God by loving and obeying Him and loving others for Him. Jesus died on the cross to cancel our sins. We need to accept Jesus into our life as our Lord and Savior forever to receive God’s blessing and forgiveness plus go to heaven to be with God forever after we die. This is about being a born-again Christian. Faith in God is a gift from God. You can pray for faith in God. Just speak out and ask God for the faith to believe in Him and to follow Him. Some people find faith in God when they realize the beauty in the world is made by God. Evolution can’t explain the world’s natural beauty, for example, the parks in the world, animals, flowers, peacocks, sunsets, butterflies, rainbows, etc. After you have your faith on, you can pray a sinner’s prayer to be a born-again Christian. This prayer is very important and should be said with a sincere heart and faith in God. This is the prayer: "Dear God, I know that I am a sinner and that Jesus Christ is the sacrifice for our sins. I have done the following sins (state these out) and I pray to discontinue these sins. I pray to receive Jesus Christ into my life as my Lord and Savior forever. In Jesus’ name, amen." I’m Lutheran and I like the Baptist churches too. You could check out a Christian church youth group to learn about God’s will for your life. You can pray to God about your daily life and have a Christian church pray for you..